I fucking hate depression. I’m really struggling right now.
The last five years, I’ve been so sad. I’m trying not to be sad. I’m going to therapy and I’m taking meds and I’m doing excercises that come out of a workbook and I’m journaling and trying to eat healthier. And I’m still sad.
I don’t feel sad all the time, but I’ve noticed that my general opinion of myself is really low, even in my good moments. I’ve noticed that things that would normally make me happy don’t anymore.
I don’t want to surrender to this thing. I’m going to keep trying. It’s just hard. I’m tired. I just want to start feeling better so I can enjoy my life and start doing more things that I dream about doing.